I wonder if it would have been different
had I known better, would I still be
here spinning circles with you?
Not that I mind – not that I’ve ever
wanted to be anywhere but with you,
never wanted anywhere but you.
And I’ve tried running in every direction,
looking for true north in a different place,
a different body, a different someone
that wasn’t you – but I couldn’t,
I couldn’t find a different center,
a different home in a different embrace;
I couldn’t find another boy quite like
the one I was trying so hard
Because that’s all it was in the end,
that’s all it ever was about.